Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Pissed

Pissed

Today (July 2, 2013) started off like the previous day, HOT!! I had some running around to do, so I got it done early and when I got back from doing said running around there had been a little surprise for me. That I won’t share as its not the reason for this blog/rant.
I was watching my niece, Brandy, until after Grandma got back from dialysis at about 11:30. When she did my sister-in-law, JoJo, myself, and my nephew, Nicky, ran to 7 Eleven for Slurpees and snacks. After we got home I went straight to bed. I slept until about 5:30 pm when my husband wakes me up.
That’s when he told me the reason for this blog/rant.
Someone has called CPS (Child Protective Services) on my 71 year old Grandmother and my brother! They are using Grandma’s health (which was known to CPS and the state of Washington at the time of Grandma’s adoption of Brandy) against her. There is also an abuse case against my brother.
Of course, my brother and sister-in-law are worried about what will happen to their kids. Which will be nothing. The most CPS will do is force them to live separately. They won’t take the kids.
Grandma isn’t doing well and doesn’t have much time left at all anyway. This case is ridiculous! Whomever did this is going to look like a jackass when it’s all said and done. I hope they realize that they aren’t just hurting Grandma and Butch (my brother), but the entire family.
Did they stop to realize what will happen to Grandma if she loses Brandy? It would kill her! Not only would they be breaking up a family, but they would be killing my Grandmother! Who are they? We don’t know. CPS wanted Grandma to come in tonight, but she said she couldn’t so they will be in sometime this week or next.

I wish I knew what was going to happen. For all I know they could take all the kids, kick everyone else out, and put Grandma in a home!

Friday, June 14, 2013

Updated Publication List

Updated Publication Dates



The Hotel Slayings
Amazon 11-22-11
Kindle 6-4-12

The Masked Killer
Amazon 6-4-12
Kindle 6-4-12

Ballerina
Amazon 6-4-12
Kindle 6-4-12

Recreational Murder
Amazon 6-12-12
Kindle 6-11-12

Fake
Amazon 6-15-12
Kindle 6-14-12

Trea Bella-Donna
Amazon 6-18-12
Kindle 6-17-12

Dew
Amazon 6-5-12
Kindle 6-4-12

Bored and Bleeding
Amazon 6-4-12
Kindle 6-4-12

The Scorned American
Amazon 6-5-12
Kindle 6-4-12

2030
Amazon 12-17-12
Kindle 12-17-12

Egotistical Mama
Amazon 12-25-12
Kindle 12-28-12

A Perfectly Secret Affair
Amazon 12-25-12
Kindle 12-28-12

From Me To You (NEW)
Amazon 6-8-13
Kindle 6-8-13

The Haunted Third Shift (NEW)
Amazon 6-8-13
Kindle 6-7-13

Lonely Nights and Crimson Lips (NEW)
Amazon 6-8-13
Kindle 6-7-13

Powerful Desire (NEW)
Amazon 6-8-13
Kindle 6-7-13

Espionage Garden
Amazon 6-5-12
Kindle 6-4-12

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Death in America

Death in American

          These three names, Mathew Shepherd, Teena Brandon, and Gwen Araujo, have become nearly synonymous with gay/transgender hate crimes. I have a very strong opinion on gay rights. On hate crimes in general.

Matthew Shepherd

 
From Wikipedia
         Matthew was, as we all know, an openly gay college student in Laramie, Wyoming. He was born
December 1, 1976 and died on October 12, 1998 He had been attending the University of Wyoming there as a political science major. He went into a bar and a couple of local boys (Aaron McKinney and Russell Henderson) went up to him. They started chatting and it was decided that they would give him a ride home. Instead they took him to a very remote area where they tied him to a fence; beat him and left him to die.
          I wasn’t there when this happened; obviously, I never knew Matthew Shepherd and I will never get a chance to meet him. Would I like him if I met him? I don’t know, but I know that if I didn’t like him, it wouldn’t be because he was gay.
          You may ask yourself why he became so special to the media. You may ask why the world cared about what happened to him. It’s because this was a hate crime. Mr. Shepherd was targeted because he was who he was: a gay college student in Wyoming. I know that there are people that probably don’t think that this was a hate crime, but it was. Why else would two boys (I just can’t call them men) would do something like this? Robbery? That’s what they claimed. Did he come on to them? That’s what they claimed.
          There are only three people who know what truly happened. Aaron McKinney and Russell Henderson and Matthew Shepherd and he can’t speak for himself and I doubt that Aaron McKinney or Russell Henderson will ever tell the truth. If they do it will be on their deathbeds.
          Maybe I’m stupid or something; because I just don’t understand how one person, let alone two people could do that do someone else. I don’t understand. I don’t get how that happens. It makes no sense to me, not at all.
          I don’t always get along with my friends or family, or even strangers, but I don’t want to beat them, humiliate them, torture them, and leave them for dead. I may want to smack them once in awhile, but that’s it.
          I ask you, readers, do any of you think of these things? Do any of you think of Matthew Shepherd? Do you think of what he might be like if he was alive today? If Aaron and Russell had never gotten taken him from that bar?
          Would he engaged? A parent? Would Matthew be excited to be planning his wedding to the man of his dreams and have it recognized? What would he think of a black President? Do you think he would have voted for Obama? Would he have been horrified about 9/11?

          These are just a few of the things I wonder about. It’s what got me thinking of writing this story here. It’s a blog, but it will go into my magazine as well. I think it should be out there. Someone needs to keep the light shed on this.

Gwen Araujo

from Newark Patch
          Gwen was born Edward Arajuo and was called Eddie from the time he was a baby. She was born February 24, 1985 and died October 3, 2002. Gwen, as her friends and family called her, was pre-operative male to female transgender. She 
was just seventeen years old when Michael Magidson, Jaron Nabors, José Merél, and Paul Merél decided that she had lied about who she was and took it upon themselves to beat and strangle her to death. From most accounts she had entered into a sexual relationship with one of the boys and he didn’t take too kindly to having sex with a man.
           What I don’t get is why one of the men didn’t report it and get a better deal? Why let it get as far as it did? Did they mean for her to die? What would cause someone to do this?
          I believe that the men that did that to Gwen should have been sentenced to death. That the hate crime status should have been put to this murder, because that’s what it was. Plain and simple: a hate crime. From what I read, the girlfriend to one of the men, forced Gwen into the bathroom then announced it to the men. They then began to severely beat the seventeen year old to death.
          I guess her lying there bleeding wasn’t enough or that they just wanted to make sure the job was done, because they drug her out to the garage and strangled her. Then to just dispose of her in a shallow grave, why? What did that prove? It didn’t make them big, bad he-men; beating someone when there was only one of them and three of the others.
          I think it was a great injustice. Gwen deserved closure and justice, her family deserved closure.
          I can’t imagine that her family was overly thrilled when the first realized that Eddie wanted to be a girl. I hope, and from what I’ve read they have, that they came around before it was too late to tell her how they felt about her. I bet it was especially hard on her mother and siblings.
          Again, why would someone do something like this? I just don’t get it. So she lied about being a boy, to her, she wasn’t lying. Gwen was planning on fixing what was wrong, if only they had waited. If only she had done it sooner.
          Our country is supposed to be free, but its not. There are people in this country who cannot be who they are for fear that something like this will happen to them.
          Her life was turned into a Lifetime original movie titled Gwen Arajuo: A Girl Like Me.

Brandon Teena

          Brandon Teena was born Teena Renae Brandon in December 12, 1972 and died December 31, 1993 from a gunshot wound.
from google
          Not long before Brandon was murdered, he was raped. Two of the men that he hung out with were convicted felons and they didn’t like that he had lied to them. They had found out he was born a woman and took advantage. From all I could read, Brandon’s girlfriend, Lana, told him to report the crime. The police then lost the rape kit. I’m betting because they didn’t understand or didn’t want to understand that even though Brandon didn’t identify with being a woman he could still be raped. All’s it takes is the word NO!
          Unlike Gwen Arajuo, whose mother had her name legally changes posthumously, Brandon wasn’t so lucky. His mother did not want her daughter to be a man. Even in death, his mother wouldn’t let him have that. Brandon’s headstone reads Teena R. Brandon B. December 12, 1972 D. December 31, 1993. Sister, daughter, friend.
          What kind of mother does that? Did Gwen’s mother love her more than Brandon’s mother loved him? Did she just not care?
          As for the freaks that killed him, one got life in prison while the other got the death sentence. Both were involved in the rape and subsequent murder. Yet because one of them rolled on the other, he got a reduced sentence. I’m sorry, but if you’ve got balls enough to murder someone then you have enough balls to take it like a man and die like one.
          I shake my head whenever I read what happened to this poor young man. He was born a woman and trapped. While Brandon had yet to start taking the hormones to begin his transformation, he was a man. From what I read, anyone who knew him knew that.
          I read that the killer saw Brandon twitching after he’d been shot and took a knife to him just to make sure he was dead.
          Hate crime before hate crime was even a thought.
          His life was the inspiration for the movie Boys Don't Cry.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Stuff


Home—

Things are going okay, I suppose. Nothing is wrong between my husband and myself; things are great, actually. We’re able to be together more even though I’m still working like crazy. He’s been very supportive with work.

Grandma isn’t doing so well. She’s spent most of this month (May) in the hospital. From what her doctors say, it isn’t going to get better, only worse. The worst. Death. They give her two weeks to two months. So far she’s doing okay, but we’re all on edge.

Not only that, but the Children’s Home Society is trying to take my niece away from my grandmother. She isn’t going to let that happen and neither am I or my husband. Grandma is ready to move away to prevent it from happening.

My brother is getting married, finally, to his baby mama of four years. They’ve been together as long as my husband and I have been, just a month later. They finally decided after two kids it was time. I’m happy for them.


Work—

Things aren’t going well. I’m mostly happy, but not. I can’t say more than that.

Magazine—

It’s going great! We just landed our first BIG interview. Former American Idol contestant Britnee Kellogg! She talks about her family, her budding career, and more.

We’ve sold a total of 3 copies, I believe, so I count that as good.

Writing—

Fine. Its there, it isn’t going anywhere. I get only inspiration for short stories at the moment, but none of the novels. So I have a lot of stories for the short story collection The Haunted Third Shift, and nothing for any of the novels which, in a later blog, I will update.

At the moment I’m doubting that I’ll get all those novels done by the end of the year. There’s also an un-named novel planned for November for National Novel Writing Month, but that shouldn’t take long to complete. It can’t. I want to be able to do it this year.

Reviews—
The season finale reviews are coming soon. I want to be able to watch them again, maybe take notes on what goes on. I’ll have reviews for Scandal, Once Upon A Time, Grey’s Anatomy, NCIS, and more.

I haven’t forgotten about them and I’m hoping to be able to keep up doing them all season long next year. Even if I have to take notes and write them up as I watch them and type them up when I get to work. I’ll figure it out somehow.

I think that’s everything. I’ll try to keep up with the blogs. It’s getting difficult. I may have to lose the other blogs and just keep the main one. We’ll see.

Sunday, April 28, 2013

I’m Not Gay… I’m a Proud Supporter of Gay Marriage


I’m a Proud Supporter of Gay Marriage

By Marie Garcia

Rainbow Flag
For a long time now all I’ve been hearing about is gay marriage. I’m not sick of hearing it, but I’m worried that it will never happen in all 50 states. There are currently 9 states (Connecticut, Iowa, Maine, Maryland, Massachusetts, New York, Washington, Vermont, and Washington DC) that allow same sex marriages. While others only offer domestic partnerships, civil unions, and more. The majority of the country is just plain anti-gay marriage.
          I find this very disappointing.
          In the Constitution of the United States it clearly says that all men are created equal and yet no one believes in. Those of us in power to change that won’t because of those who choose to ignore that probably more than half the country’s population are gay.
          I want to live in an America where my gay friends and family can get married; where they have the same benefits as every straight man and woman in this county. One of my favorite quotes, for lack of a better term, is this: If the gay and lesbian communities wish to be as unhappy as the rest of us, let them get married! Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m a happily married woman and there are some who have said that quote or something similar to me over the last couple of years.
          I have a great-uncle who passed away in 1990 before there was all of this buzz about gay marriage. When I heard that Massachusetts was going to allow same sex couples to marry, I admit it freely, I cried my eyes out and I can recall saying I wish Uncle Steve could have lived to see this! I think he would have happy to marry his boyfriend.
Gay Marriage Equality Symbol
          I guess I can thank my uncle for making me so open minded about the gay community, though I would like to think that I would be open minded even without his influences. One of the best memories I have is walking along the beach with my great-uncle (my grandmother’s brother) and my aunt (my mother’s sister). They had me between them and I was carrying a black garbage bag. This man walked between us and Uncle Steve whipped his bald head around and said, “Damn that man has a nice ass!” My aunt looked at him and said, “Uncle Steve!” To which, he said, “What?” Completely confused. My aunt said, “Sarah is right there!” He shrugged and we kept walking.
          To this day, I can recall that moment and I just figured it was another part of life. Who cared if he didn’t like women? It was his choice and as long as he was happy, who was I to judge?
          After he had passed away, everyone was at the beach, and Grandma had gathered all of us kids in the living room (we had a beach house) and asked us to sit. We did and she told us that he was gay. I looked at her and said, “So?”
          I love my Grandmother and I know she loved her brother, but she is still one of the most anti-gay people I have ever met. I had her tell me once that if any of her children were gay that she would disown them. I just looked at her and shook my head. I can understand, slightly, where she is coming from. She’s from a very different time and she is very religious. What she needs to realize is that this isn’t 1950 or 1960 anymore and that gay people are just that, people.
          There is nothing wrong with them and I shame anyone who thinks so. Whether there is a ‘gay gene’ or if it’s a choice, doesn’t matter; as long as the person is happy that’s what matters the most.
          I know this is all over the place and I can’t help that. It’s how I think and I write how I thing. So, I apologize for that.
          Back to my point, I think I had one; anyway I’m for gay marriage because it’s only fair. I think that everyone should be able to marry whomever they want, with the exception of those people who want to marry their pet goat or cow. That’s just weird.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Novel Updates and More


          So I finally decided to sit down once again and do a blog. I can’t believe that I haven’t been able to keep this up. I mean, true, I don’t have a lot to talk about, but there is always something that can be mentioned. I have so much going on right now.
The magazine
  1. My writing
  2. Editing
  3. Hanging out with friends
  4. Spending time with my husband
  5. Work
  6. Other family
          That’s a lot of stuff and I rarely have time to keep it all up. It’s the reason why the blogs suffer.
          So I need to update you on the books that I have in the works, what’s done, and what’s on the horizon.
Old Books to be Completed:
  1. Life and Death
  2. Suicide Killer
  3. Dreamland Theater
  4. Sai
  5. Endless Soul

Old Books Completed:
  1. Twelve Months
  2. Weird

New Books to be Completed:
  1. Better Days
  2. Come Travel with Me
  3. The Haunted Third Shift (Short Story Collection)
  4. The Evil Ones
  5. Powerful Desire (Poetry Collection)

New Short Stories:
The Crash

New Poetry:
Sunny Side Up

Sequels to Short Stories:
  1. Perfect
  2. Crimson Lips
  3. Fighting
  4. The Voyeur Saves the Day
  5. Silent Pain
  6. Loathing
  7. Scorned
          Those are just the ones I remember, though it helped that I wrote them down. The older books I want to complete are Life and Death, Suicide Killer (the next book in the Delta Files series), Dreamland Theater, Sai, and Endless Soul. The latter will take time. I need to a ton of research on it.
          I suppose that’s all, for now. Time to work on the reviews, maybe.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Seriously Lax


        I know that I’ve been seriously lax in keeping up with all of my blogs. There have been a lot of things going on at home and with the magazine.

At Home:
·        Grandma has been in and out of the hospital most of the year. She has been diagnosed with colon cancer and her prognosis with that is good; however, her heart, lungs, and kidneys are not faring as well. Her kidneys are in full failure and she has been put on a very strict renal diet: no salt, no tomatoes, and so on and so on. If she does what she is supposed to i.e. avoiding salt and going to dialysis four times a week she can live for another seven years. On the flip side, if she doesn’t, then the prognosis is days.
·        Both Adult Protective Services (APS) and Child Protective Services (CPS) are now involved. APS will be coming in regularly to make sure the house is suitable for Grandma and that things are calm and that fighting is kept to a minimum. CPS will be helping certain individuals getting a place of their own and moving out. Hopefully that cuts down on the fighting.

GZine:
·        During the holidays I got behind with both the magazine and the blogs. I finally got the third and fourth issues published.
·        The fourth issue of the magazine is out. The issue contains an interview with my friend and our travel guru, Crystal Steinmueller and how she dealt with the death and subsequent years since the passing of her twins’ death. It also includes an article about the seventeenth anniversary of the death of the secretary of our middle school and my thoughts on everything.
·        Working on the next issue.

        Hopefully I will be able to keep going with this blog. I’m not making any promises, but I really intend to.