To say that I have a lot going on is an understatement. Things at work aren't going well at all and I just don't know what to do. Do I stay or do I go? Do I lose everything that I've worked for outside of work because of what's going on at work? Hard questions.
I decided to dye my hair black again. Some may think that its a rebellious thing or a way to act out without actually acting out. Its not. I loved my hair when it was this color. It gave me a sense of piece and a sense of power. So when my husband got paid, I got the dye and I love it! Things at work may be suckish, but my hair isn't! I also love it because it brings out the golden (Cullen) color in my eyes.
Back to the work stuff. I seem to just be pissing off my bosses by being myself and doing what I'm supposed to do. Because everything that I do seems to be making them mad at me. Maybe I'm being overly sensitive, but when your boss basically tells you that he doesn't trust you, you being to wonder. Am I being overly sensitive? I'd like to think I'm not. I spent the better part of the other day crying because I've given 3 years of my life to this job. Three years of my married life to this job, no less. I didn't get a proper honeymoon because I had to work that entire first week.
I don't like to make waves, contrary to popular belief. I like to keep to myself and keep the trouble to a minimum. I love my job and I don't to lose it.
I honestly don't know what to do.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Pissed
Pissed
Today (July 2, 2013) started off
like the previous day, HOT!! I had some running around to do, so I got it done
early and when I got back from doing said running around there had been a
little surprise for me. That I won’t share as its not the reason for this
blog/rant.
I was watching my niece, Brandy,
until after Grandma got back from dialysis at about 11:30. When she did my
sister-in-law, JoJo, myself, and my nephew, Nicky, ran to 7 Eleven for Slurpees
and snacks. After we got home I went straight to bed. I slept until about 5:30
pm when my husband wakes me up.
That’s when he told me the reason
for this blog/rant.
Someone has called CPS (Child
Protective Services) on my 71 year old Grandmother and my brother! They are
using Grandma’s health (which was known to CPS and the state of Washington at the time
of Grandma’s adoption of Brandy) against her. There is also an abuse case
against my brother.
Of course, my brother and
sister-in-law are worried about what will happen to their kids. Which will be
nothing. The most CPS will do is force them to live separately. They won’t take
the kids.
Grandma isn’t doing well and doesn’t
have much time left at all anyway. This case is ridiculous! Whomever did this
is going to look like a jackass when it’s all said and done. I hope they
realize that they aren’t just hurting Grandma and Butch (my brother), but the
entire family.
Did they stop to realize what will
happen to Grandma if she loses Brandy? It would kill her! Not only would they
be breaking up a family, but they would be killing my Grandmother! Who are
they? We don’t know. CPS wanted Grandma to come in tonight, but she said she
couldn’t so they will be in sometime this week or next.
I wish I knew what was going to
happen. For all I know they could take all the kids, kick everyone else out,
and put Grandma in a home!
Friday, June 14, 2013
Updated Publication List
Updated Publication Dates
The Hotel Slayings
Amazon 11-22-11
Kindle 6-4-12
The Masked Killer
Amazon 6-4-12
Kindle 6-4-12
Ballerina
Amazon 6-4-12
Kindle 6-4-12
Recreational Murder
Amazon 6-12-12
Kindle 6-11-12
Fake
Amazon 6-15-12
Kindle 6-14-12
Trea Bella-Donna
Amazon 6-18-12
Kindle 6-17-12
Dew
Amazon 6-5-12
Kindle 6-4-12
Bored and Bleeding
Amazon 6-4-12
Kindle 6-4-12
The Scorned American
Amazon 6-5-12
Kindle 6-4-12
2030
Amazon 12-17-12
Kindle 12-17-12
Egotistical Mama
Amazon 12-25-12
Kindle 12-28-12
A Perfectly Secret Affair
Amazon 12-25-12
Kindle 12-28-12
From Me To You (NEW)
Amazon 6-8-13
Kindle 6-8-13
The Haunted Third Shift
Amazon 6-8-13
Kindle 6-7-13
Lonely Nights and Crimson Lips
Amazon 6-8-13
Kindle 6-7-13
Powerful Desire
Amazon 6-8-13
Kindle 6-7-13
Amazon 6-5-12
Kindle 6-4-12
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Death in America
Death in American
These three names, Mathew Shepherd, Teena Brandon, and
Gwen Araujo, have become nearly synonymous with gay/transgender hate crimes. I
have a very strong opinion on gay rights. On hate crimes in general.
Matthew
Shepherd
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| From Wikipedia |
I wasn’t there when this happened;
obviously, I never knew Matthew Shepherd and I will never get a chance to meet him.
Would I like him if I met him? I don’t know, but I know that if I didn’t like
him, it wouldn’t be because he was gay.
You may ask yourself why he became so
special to the media. You may ask why the world cared about what happened to
him. It’s because this was a hate crime. Mr. Shepherd was targeted because he
was who he was: a gay college student in Wyoming
There are only three people who know
what truly happened. Aaron McKinney and
Russell Henderson and Matthew Shepherd and he can’t speak for himself
and I doubt that Aaron McKinney or Russell Henderson will ever tell the
truth. If they do it will be on their deathbeds.
Maybe I’m stupid or something; because
I just don’t understand how one person, let alone two people could do that do
someone else. I don’t understand. I don’t get how that happens. It makes no
sense to me, not at all.
I don’t always get along with my
friends or family, or even strangers, but I don’t want to beat them, humiliate them,
torture them, and leave them for dead. I may want to smack them once in awhile,
but that’s it.
I ask you, readers, do any of you
think of these things? Do any of you think of Matthew Shepherd? Do you think of
what he might be like if he was alive today? If Aaron and Russell had never
gotten taken him from that bar?
Would he engaged? A parent? Would
Matthew be excited to be planning his wedding to the man of his dreams and have
it recognized? What would he think of a black President? Do you think he would
have voted for Obama? Would he have been horrified about 9/11?
These are just a few of the things I wonder
about. It’s what got me thinking of writing this story here. It’s a blog, but
it will go into my magazine as well. I think it should be out there. Someone
needs to keep the light shed on this.
Gwen Araujo
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| from Newark Patch |
was
just seventeen years old when Michael Magidson, Jaron Nabors, José Merél, and
Paul Merél decided that she had lied about who she was and took it upon
themselves to beat and strangle her to death. From most accounts she had
entered into a sexual relationship with one of the boys and he didn’t take too
kindly to having sex with a man.
What I don’t get is
why one of the men didn’t report it and get a better deal? Why let it get as
far as it did? Did they mean for her to die? What would cause someone to do
this?
I believe that the men that did that
to Gwen should have been sentenced to death. That the hate crime status should
have been put to this murder, because that’s what it was. Plain and simple: a
hate crime. From what I read, the girlfriend to one of the men, forced Gwen
into the bathroom then announced it to the men. They then began to severely
beat the seventeen year old to death.
I guess her lying there bleeding wasn’t
enough or that they just wanted to make sure the job was done, because they
drug her out to the garage and strangled her. Then to just dispose of her in a
shallow grave, why? What did that prove? It didn’t make them big, bad he-men; beating
someone when there was only one of them and three of the others.
I think it was a great injustice. Gwen
deserved closure and justice, her family deserved closure.
I can’t imagine that her family was
overly thrilled when the first realized that Eddie wanted to be a girl. I hope,
and from what I’ve read they have, that they came around before it was too late
to tell her how they felt about her. I bet it was especially hard on her mother
and siblings.
Again, why would someone do something
like this? I just don’t get it. So she lied about being a boy, to her, she wasn’t
lying. Gwen was planning on fixing what was wrong, if only they had waited. If
only she had done it sooner.
Our country is supposed to be free,
but its not. There are people in this country who cannot be who they are for
fear that something like this will happen to them.
Her life was turned into a Lifetime
original movie titled Gwen Arajuo: A Girl
Like Me.
Brandon Teena
Brandon Teena was born Teena Renae Brandon in December 12, 1972 and died December 31, 1993 from a
gunshot wound.
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| from google |
Not long before Brandon Brandon Brandon
Unlike Gwen Arajuo, whose mother had
her name legally changes posthumously, Brandon Brandon ’s
headstone reads Teena R. Brandon
What kind of mother does that? Did
Gwen’s mother love her more than Brandon
As for the freaks that killed him, one
got life in prison while the other got the death sentence. Both were involved
in the rape and subsequent murder. Yet because one of them rolled on the other,
he got a reduced sentence. I’m sorry, but if you’ve got balls enough to murder
someone then you have enough balls to take it like a man and die like one.
I shake my head whenever I read what
happened to this poor young man. He was born a woman and trapped. While Brandon
I read that the killer saw Brandon
Hate crime before hate crime was even
a thought.
His life was the inspiration for the movie
Boys Don't Cry.
Bibliography
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Stuff
Home—
Things are going okay, I suppose.
Nothing is wrong between my husband and myself; things are great, actually. We’re
able to be together more even though I’m still working like crazy. He’s been
very supportive with work.
Grandma isn’t doing so well.
She’s spent most of this month (May) in the hospital. From what her doctors
say, it isn’t going to get better, only worse. The worst. Death. They give her
two weeks to two months. So far she’s doing okay, but we’re all on edge.
Not only that, but the
Children’s Home Society is trying to take my niece away from my grandmother. She
isn’t going to let that happen and neither am I or my husband. Grandma is ready
to move away to prevent it from happening.
My brother is getting
married, finally, to his baby mama of four years. They’ve been together as long
as my husband and I have been, just a month later. They finally decided after
two kids it was time. I’m happy for them.
Work—
Things aren’t going well. I’m
mostly happy, but not. I can’t say more than that.
Magazine—
It’s going great! We just
landed our first BIG interview. Former American Idol contestant Britnee
Kellogg! She talks about her family, her budding career, and more.
We’ve sold a total of 3
copies, I believe, so I count that as good.
Writing—
Fine. Its there, it isn’t
going anywhere. I get only inspiration for short stories at the moment, but
none of the novels. So I have a lot of stories for the short story collection The Haunted Third Shift, and nothing for
any of the novels which, in a later blog, I will update.
At the moment I’m doubting
that I’ll get all those novels done by the end of the year. There’s also an
un-named novel planned for November for National Novel Writing Month, but that
shouldn’t take long to complete. It can’t. I want to be able to do it this
year.
Reviews—
The season finale reviews are
coming soon. I want to be able to watch them again, maybe take notes on what
goes on. I’ll have reviews for Scandal,
Once Upon A Time, Grey’s Anatomy, NCIS, and more.
I haven’t forgotten about
them and I’m hoping to be able to keep up doing them all season long next year.
Even if I have to take notes and write them up as I watch them and type them up
when I get to work. I’ll figure it out somehow.
I think that’s everything. I’ll
try to keep up with the blogs. It’s getting difficult. I may have to lose the
other blogs and just keep the main one. We’ll see.
Sunday, April 28, 2013
I’m Not Gay… I’m a Proud Supporter of Gay Marriage
I’m
a Proud Supporter of Gay Marriage
By
Marie Garcia
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| Rainbow Flag |
For
a long time now all I’ve been hearing about is gay marriage. I’m not sick of
hearing it, but I’m worried that it will never happen in all 50 states. There
are currently 9 states (Connecticut , Iowa , Maine , Maryland , Massachusetts ,
New York , Washington ,
Vermont , and Washington DC
I find this very disappointing.
In the Constitution of the United States
I want to live in an America
I have a great-uncle who passed away
in 1990 before there was all of this buzz about gay marriage. When I heard that
Massachusetts
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| Gay Marriage Equality Symbol |
I guess I
can thank my uncle for making me so open minded about the gay community, though
I would like to think that I would be open minded even without his influences.
One of the best memories I have is walking along the beach with my great-uncle
(my grandmother’s brother) and my aunt (my mother’s sister). They had me
between them and I was carrying a black garbage bag. This man walked between us
and Uncle Steve whipped his bald head around and said, “Damn that man has a
nice ass!” My aunt looked at him and said, “Uncle Steve!” To which, he said, “What?”
Completely confused. My aunt said, “Sarah is right there!” He shrugged and we kept
walking.
To this day, I can recall that moment
and I just figured it was another part of life. Who cared if he didn’t like
women? It was his choice and as long as he was happy, who was I to judge?
After he had passed away, everyone was
at the beach, and Grandma had gathered all of us kids in the living room (we
had a beach house) and asked us to sit. We did and she told us that he was gay.
I looked at her and said, “So?”
I love my Grandmother and I know she
loved her brother, but she is still one of the most anti-gay people I have ever
met. I had her tell me once that if any of her children were gay that she would
disown them. I just looked at her and shook my head. I can understand,
slightly, where she is coming from. She’s from a very different time and she is
very religious. What she needs to
realize is that this isn’t 1950 or 1960 anymore and that gay people are just
that, people.
There is nothing wrong with them and I
shame anyone who thinks so. Whether there is a ‘gay gene’ or if it’s a choice,
doesn’t matter; as long as the person is happy that’s what matters the most.
I know this is all over the place and I
can’t help that. It’s how I think and I write how I thing. So, I apologize for
that.
Back to my point, I think I had one;
anyway I’m for gay marriage because it’s only fair. I think that everyone
should be able to marry whomever they want, with the exception of those people
who want to marry their pet goat or cow. That’s just weird.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Novel Updates and More
So I finally decided to sit down once
again and do a blog. I can’t believe that I haven’t been able to keep this up.
I mean, true, I don’t have a lot to talk about, but there is always something
that can be mentioned. I have so much going on right now.
The
magazine
- My
writing
- Editing
- Hanging
out with friends
- Spending
time with my husband
- Work
- Other
family
That’s a lot of stuff and I rarely
have time to keep it all up. It’s the reason why the blogs suffer.
So I need to update you on the books
that I have in the works, what’s done, and what’s on the horizon.
Old
Books to be Completed:
- Life
and Death
- Suicide
Killer
- Dreamland
Theater
- Sai
- Endless
Soul
Old
Books Completed:
- Twelve
Months
- Weird
New
Books to be Completed:
- Better
Days
- Come
Travel with Me
- The
Haunted Third Shift (Short Story Collection)
- The
Evil Ones
- Powerful
Desire (Poetry Collection)
New
Short Stories:
The
Crash
New
Poetry:
Sunny
Side Up
Sequels
to Short Stories:
- Perfect
- Crimson
Lips
- Fighting
- The
Voyeur Saves the Day
- Silent
Pain
- Loathing
- Scorned
Those are just the ones I remember,
though it helped that I wrote them down. The older books I want to complete are
Life and Death, Suicide Killer (the next book in the Delta Files series), Dreamland Theater, Sai, and Endless Soul.
The latter will take time. I need to a ton of research on it.
I suppose that’s all, for now. Time to
work on the reviews, maybe.
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