To say that I have a lot going on is an understatement. Things at work aren't going well at all and I just don't know what to do. Do I stay or do I go? Do I lose everything that I've worked for outside of work because of what's going on at work? Hard questions.
I decided to dye my hair black again. Some may think that its a rebellious thing or a way to act out without actually acting out. Its not. I loved my hair when it was this color. It gave me a sense of piece and a sense of power. So when my husband got paid, I got the dye and I love it! Things at work may be suckish, but my hair isn't! I also love it because it brings out the golden (Cullen) color in my eyes.
Back to the work stuff. I seem to just be pissing off my bosses by being myself and doing what I'm supposed to do. Because everything that I do seems to be making them mad at me. Maybe I'm being overly sensitive, but when your boss basically tells you that he doesn't trust you, you being to wonder. Am I being overly sensitive? I'd like to think I'm not. I spent the better part of the other day crying because I've given 3 years of my life to this job. Three years of my married life to this job, no less. I didn't get a proper honeymoon because I had to work that entire first week.
I don't like to make waves, contrary to popular belief. I like to keep to myself and keep the trouble to a minimum. I love my job and I don't to lose it.
I honestly don't know what to do.
